11:48:00 am
it's sunday noon... n i'm bored... not feeling gd all thx to my 'sweet' little time-of-the-month.. garz... i'm trying to waste time online... n not get pissed at some stuff (so tt i would not b labelled as unreasonable..).... it sucks...... my mum's being irritating.... again... but thankfully, she's not asking me to go find job or when's my pay coming out.. *phew*
i haf a sudden urge to knoe how to swim.... i feel like going fer e changi naval base open hse coz i wanna see how it looks like.. but it's too frigging far... i wanna go many places.... but i'm juz too broke...
this is a crisis man!!!
i juz wanna go fer a long break.. but fer tt.. i need $$$$... grz... mabbe i shall juz splurge my pay on tt break n go to bintan/batam n juz relax there... on e beach every morning... take a stroll on it in e evening... e rest of e day juz do other stuff like... exploring or sth... juz a wish... how i wish i can go buy 4D n win it tonite.. hm... n bet like say... 10bucks of sth... enuff to last me a wk in batam/bintan i think... if not... e most i can go on a shopping spree.... somehow... shopping spree does wonders to women huh??
11:10:00 pm
i'm being silly.. but i'm very happy now... coz my mum got me a fan frm harvey norman when we went shopping a while after dinner at jurong pt.. n jerry fixed it all up fer me.. =) ahaha.. simple things like this makes my day.. whee..
i bought wax this morning.. e new veet wax thingy.. n i tried... like... it didnt work on my thighs.. n onli a few strands of hair came off me knee.... weird.. freakking waste of money.. dammit.. thank goodness watsons had 20% off.. hrmph... n i didnt feel any pain... really..
n i'm delighted tt my mum agreed tt i can haf a new bk cupboard (my current one is filled w junk n dust coz it has no doors..) when we move hse.. again.. =( n this time to a smaller hse.. but it's ok.. less space fer me to clean also.. ahaha... tt's if i do help in e cleaning.. bleargh.. n i hope i can haf curtains this time rd.. i really hate having e stupid sun shining into my rm at 8am in e morning.. n it wakes me up coz it juz gets too hot... even w my aircon on!!! i'm serious!
it's time fer to me... get my arse off this comp chair n play some games! whee...
6:54:00 pm
sometimes.... i think i'm too realistic n critical.. i'd critise abt ppl when they dun do sth whereas when i myself when i dun do sth... i juz let it b.. i shld try n change in tt aspect huh? n i knoe i dun put effort into my friendships anymore.. i dunno y.... but i'm juz too tired these days... it's been a while since i last caught up w my girl friends.. jane haf been calling me to meet up.. but she always call me at e wrong time.. urghz.. feel so bad... havent met up w lq n gina fer a proper chitchat-shopping session fer v long... havent done this n tt... but now.. it's money no enuff period.. so.. gotta stay home.. if not i gotta budget.. seriously... supposed to meet nat sim n jenny e other day tooo.. but didnt.... quite sad... but it's alrite.. will meet up w them after jenny comes back frm her trip... wanna meet up w andre b4 he goes all bald.. but no news frm him... ahahaha... supposed klass bbq is like non-existent now..
n i knoe out there.. there r ppl who actually dislike me... n i'm ok w tt though it might hurt initially... nobody's perfect... god's fair.. n i wouldnt wan everyone to like me too.. it's tiring.. really.. i'd rather haf less hi-bye-how-are-you frens but more close frenz... really.. it's amazing how i can still tok to yana n khal after all these yrs.. though now we're all diff sch n major.. yes.. i may not b easy to understand.. n i often m e butt of jokes... but... i dunno lar... i think my period is coming.. hence i'm starting all these crap again.. suddenly.. i'm not looking forward to both union n sci camp.. i really dunno y.. i juz hope this is a passing phase... i'm not always cheerful though i might appear cheerful n all on e outside... there r juz too much emotions at times.. n it may b juz too... i dunno how to put it.. but isnt it boring if everyone juz wears their emotions on their faces?? den e whole world would b grumpy n all... coz everyone r bound to haf problems in one way or another...
i leave u to think now w this question.. wat is e reason tt u're still living in this world?? (i'm not cursing u or anything..) i cant think of my reason as yet.... someone pls enlighten me..
5:54:00 pm
last day of work today... mixed feelings i suppose... though i've onli worked fer 6 days n everytime different kids.. yeaps.. i like it when i meet kids who are slightly naughty n adorable.. but i absolutely hate those irritating kids who dun listen to instructions... esp those em3 kids... i'm not condemning them or anything lar.... but.... today's em3 kids r e ultimate... no teachers w them during e photo shoot.... onli had me, ck n this lady liasing w us to TRY n control them.... they were like e most most most incorrigible lot of em3 students tt i've met.. n such a huge class of 30 odd students.. n they werent even e last class... n e last class was even more well behaved than them man.. they didnt even understand simple instructions like sit, leave e classroom after they haf taken their photo n keep quiet.... i really lost my cool n juz screamed at them...horrible kidz.. n those malay boys were so naughty tt i had to scream at them in malay to get them to sit down.. grz... i'm not being racist or wat lar.. but them didnt seem to understand simple english.... n i was really losing patience.. grz... i bet anyone who was in my position would haf lost their patience too... n e worst thing?? the skool was location at some farking ulu place.. in front of singapore's boys' home n singapore's boy hostel n an old folks home.. sheesh... w a construction site next to it... n a few pathetic block of flats on e other side of e construction site..... wonder wat moe was thinking of when they built e skool there.. wat kind of environment is tt to haf a boys' home n boys' hostel in front of a skool... n e teachers didnt even give a damn abt e kids... well... most of them at least... really e MOST cacat skool i've been too.... garz... n now my throat is feeling like shit.... falling sick like tt... growls.... n e onli gd pt abt going to today's skool, it's near my place.. dot dot dot man...
this other pri sch is seriously condemned by me... ahaha..... gave us so much shit... last nite my coordinator had to come over to my place in e middle of e nite juz to get e slips of pprs containing e kids' info n digi photos in e laptop's hard disk n rush work overnite juz to get e smart card ready tt very day n give it to e skool....went to sch X on wed morning.. supposed to take fer e whole of pri 6 in e morning.. but realised tt e sch thot it was onli fer those absentees... nvm... we were told to leave e sch n come back at 1230 fer e afternoon session to take photos fer e pri 1s.. ok... it's bright n early in e morning.. we HAD to leave e skool... so we went to some macs nearby... there's onli 1 laptop... so i ate breakfast while CK did e cropping of e photos... i finished my breakfast... CK was still editing e photos tt he needa edit... so i took e papers n looked thru classifieds... saw many jobs... so got jerry to help me call frm his hse.... n i think mostly related to e upcoming bkfair in suntec.. got a chinese bk helper or sth... n i refuse to call them regarding tt... i forgot how to speak proper chinese already.. aahahha... ok.. tt's besides e pt.... ok... den at 11 plus.. laptop ran outta batt... so cant do anything... so we decided to go back to e sch earlier n continue in sch X.. den 1.15pm came... e first pri 1 klass came down.. n we started taking all e kids' photos... everything ran smoothly UNTIL my coordinator told us tt TT stupid sch X wans e kid's smart card on thur afternoon.... n tt was at 5 sth pm... n i was like WTF... this sch is so fucked up... coz e guy frm sch X tt we were liasing w went to moe to complain or sth..... tt moe complained to e main office or sth lar.... so we had NO choice but to produce e cards by e next day... ok... den i HAD to go out fer dinner.... i shall leave these details out.. yupz.. den jerry's phone went flat.... so we both changed sim cards.. so i got a phone w no batt while he was using mine tt was low batt to keep in const contact w p n rw... den e coordinator called up CK to tell him tt no matter wat he hafta get e photos (edited or otherwise) by wed nite n told CK to call me to tell me tt.... den CK tried to contact me... but obviously he couldnt coz e phone no batt... so he knew i was out w jerry... so he called jerry... n jerry didnt feel e vibration of e phone.... so i went home.. called CK back.. n i was dropped w a bombshell.. e coordinator will collect e photos n e slips of ppr containing e kids' info frm me on tt v nite.. n told me to call him... ok.. so i called him.. n he said he'll reach my place at abt 12 to 1am... so ok... den i hurriedly went to do wateva i can... garz.. den finished onli 2 klasses den CK called me to say i didnt hafta do e last klass.. so ok... i juz sat in my living rm n waited fer e coordinator to come over... n my mum was rather amused by e whole thing.. grz... n poorthing.. he didnt haf a wink of sleep i think... he juz left my hse n went straight to office to rush everything out..
ook... i guess tt's a whole lot of complains huh? but really... e last grp of pple who did this job left a whole mess fer us to clean up... den when everytime when e sch's ask when e kids will get their smart card n wat happened to e photos e last time rd.. i'd be like oh fuck..... it's not our prob u knoe.... n parents rite in to complain abt e photos on e ez-link cards made on e first rd had those kids making funny faces, if not they look weird, otherwise their hair/uniform r messy.... so is tt OUR fault?? it's obviously NOT... like hello... u cant tell pri 1s to NOT run abt during recess rite? n their hair end up horrendeously messy after tt rite??? we tell them to smile... n they give us fake smile... again... we cant do anything rite??? n lastly... parents nowadays really dunno how to teach their kids to stand straight.... 70% of e kids hafta be told to stand straight n look into e camera... ahhh.....
okkk...... i really shld stop complaining now...... n it's time to continue w more relaxation b4 i start staring at those photos n slips of pprs later..... grz.....
8:35:00 pm
i'm so tired.. =( juz 2 days of work.... n i'm so tired out.. =( no doubt e job is pretty easy, it's no joke handling e kids.. ah.. esp e pri ones.... they will b like jumping here n there.. making so much din n all tt.. garz... but i muz admit.. their cuteness covers everything else.. hee... yest's kid was so so so cute.... n today's kids r so comical.. one gal happily pulled up her skirt n starting pulling her shirt tight while showing everyone else her green with white polka dots panties.. ahaha... n there was a boy who was forced to sing to a tree by his teacher as he was noisy.. really funny... i couldnt helped but grinned... n this other boy didnt zip his shorts.. EW.. but thank goodness... i didnt see anything.. *phew*
n it's not juz taking photos... i gotta crop e photos to a certain size n rename e photos to their ic noz.... ah... n e worst thing is tt e stupid barcode scanner cannot b plugged into jerry's laptop.. =( so now i hafta type manually... such a chore man... grz.... but i'm so glad i'm getting paid fer doing e cropping at home..
ok lar.. enuff lar.. i better get my things done as early as possible... so tt i can sleep really early.... i gotta b at acjs at 815am tmr.. ahhh.... boys boys boys.... they r gonna gimme a horrible headache tmr..
still thinking whether i should meet nat n jenny tmr after work at city hall... but after 10h of work... tt sounds really impossible.. =( n i really wanna go meet them!!! my beloved cross seniors!! plus kunshan, yogi, alicia, lincoln, dorcas etc etc....
sighs....
n guess wat???? ahaha... i actually passed my exams!!!! 1 B+, 2 Bs n 2satisfactory option!! whee... n my cap score increased!!! by... onli a little... ahaha... but better den nothing rite?? i will work even harder next sem.. =) I WILL...
wondering when nus posting will b out.. oh well.. someone pls tell me!
10:59:00 pm
whee!!! i've got a job!! whee!! i'm gonna b going to all diff pri skools n help them take their ez-link photos!!! i think it's gonna b fun... but not a lot of money... but i guess relatively enuff to survive.. $5/hr.. oh well... interesting lar huh???
results in 2 days.. i'm.. dead.. *falls to e grd*
hehe.. went to cine to eat at yuki n yaki there... i tell ya.. teppanyaki there cannot make it.. so so onli.. onli e marinated squid, salmon n saba is gd!! but i love e make ur own ice cream thingy!! damn cool!! champange n raisin there is really gd!! hehe.. next time i shall juz go back fer e ice cream buffet thing! whee...
n.. i didnt buy e tubetop in e end.. ahahaha... but i saw this champange coloured tube dress frm daniel yam(yan? i cant rem..) it looks really fantastic!! but i didnt bother to try coz i didnt wanna scare pple off w my stupid burnt back.. heh heh... n it's like 145 bucks!!! goodness.. mabbe i shall juz get e black cocktail tube dress.. ahahaha.. looks nice too... i shall keep a lookout fer nice dresses now.. =) but i ended up buying 2 spag tops frm zara instead.. my fave hot pink!! n off white.. whee... but i cant wear them tmr.. coz my skin is peeling.. sighz...
okies... time to... do other stuff!! ciaoz!!
11:13:00 pm
whee.. pink is e in colour now!!! ahaha... i'm searching fer a pink skirt!! heh... n i'm so set on buying e tube top frm warehouse.. ahaha.. i need a tubetop.... =)
n.. i juz realised.... 3 more days.. n my dreaded results will b out... stress stress stress.. =( i dun wanna see anything below a B-... but i think... tt's impossible...
12:03:00 pm
Your Existing Situation:
Works well in cooperation with others. Needs a personal life of mutual understanding and freedom from discord. --> very true.. somehow..
Your Stress Sources:
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and to bridge the gap which she feels separates herself from others. Anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to explore all its possibilities, and to live it to the fullest. She therefore resents any restriction or limitation being imposed on her and insists on being free and unhampered. --> extremely true again...
Your Restrained Characteristics:
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity but tends to hold aloof emotionally. --> first part is applies to me.... but e 2nd sentence.. hm... weird..
Your Desired Objective:
Alert and keenly observant. Is seeking fresh avenues offering greater freedom and the chance to make the most of them. Wants to prove herself and to achieve recognition. Striving to bridge the gap which she feels separates her from others. --> this is so true again.. ah..
Your Actual Problem:
Feels restricted and prevented from progressing; seeking a solution which will remove these limitations. --> a bit true i suppose..
Your Actual Problem #2:
The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities. --> haha... i suppose this is partly true..
freaky.. this test is rather accurate man... n i anyhow did e test.... ah.. here's e test..
colourquiz
10:17:00 pm
i'm burnt like a lobster.. =) my shoulders, arms, thighs r all burnt.. urghz.. pain.. =( had a wonderful time w khal n yana.. had a great time stoning tog, playing scrabble, dipping in water n soaking in e surroundings n all.. =) n i will definitely rem e ang moh who was tanning w/o her bikini top (i.e. baring her boobies..) ahaha... she was definitely getting stares frm everyone who happened to walked past her.. seriously.. e grp of malays guys there were juz taking their own sweet time in applying their sun-tanning oil while oogling at e ang moh's free show.. ahaha... den this rather old guy carrying a camera walked passed innocently, n when he noticed tt she was half nude, he juz stared at her non-stop... it's so hilarious to see those pple's reaction... n somehow, e lifeguard so far away noticed tt she was half nude n approached her to put on her bikini top.. ahaha.. i bet he was steaming away man... n i was like e first one to notice tt she wasnt wearing her bikini top!! aha.. not tt i'm perverted or wat... i juz happened to look there... she was tanning face down first..(i.e. tanning her back.) when i noticed tt there was NO bikini strings... so i thot mabbe it juz blended in well w her skin tone.... den when she turned over to tan her front... wow wee.... free show... quite amusing actually... e whole episode..
went to meet pang a while as she happened to b there too.... n her bf's stupid pomerian(however u spell it..) was... freaking me out... yes... i'm scared of dogs... but i love them coz they r soo so soo.. cute!! oh well.... n i actually wanna own a dog next time even though i'm scared of it.. oh wellz.. tt's juz so me... wanna do sth even though i'm scared of it...
n e moscow circus is coming!! i wanna watch!! hee... n stupid jerry said see price first... if not i can watch myself, abt e same as watching moscow circus... n i was... #&^@!$ horrible.. garz.....
n i'm so tired... later watching a beautiful mind.. on his laptop.. hopefully it works properly eh??
kk.. bye world... time to apply more aloe vera to soothe my burning skin... it's funny... my skin is feeling so hot tillll i feel tt e weather is not hot anymore... weird...
n oh yes.. siaw ling is coming down tmr!!! n she's gonna stayover at my place!!!! i cant wait!!!! i hope i get pass e orange julius walk-in interview!!! so exciting!!
10:42:00 pm
oooo.... i'm so excited!!! i'm going sentosa tmr!! ahaha... whee.... it's been a lllllloooonnnnnnggggggggg while.... geez.... i really miss tt place.. yes yana n khal?? it was great working there aint it?? =) n i could like slack ard.. ahaha... shhh..... but.. i'm not working there anymore anyway.. =) n oh yes... khal.. i think i saw joyce at clementi this morning when i was on my way to skool.. =)
n i waited so long at UHWC juz to see e doc fer like... 10 mins in total? or mabbe even less den 10 mins... stupid couple b4 me... bet they were doing some fertility test or sth... damn them.... they were in e rm fer like..... half an hour???? freako man.... n in fact... e doc's an old woman... n she's a bit slow... but nice..... n they took ssssooooooo long.... grz..... n while i was having consultation, e woman came back n ask e doc whether she can bath?!?! like hello.... sheesh..... n i heard it was like chicken pox or sth? i dunno lar...... coz e doc mentioned tt she can take dark soy sauce too.... garz...... irritating pple...
think i shall bring scrabble tmr.. ahahah.... it's gonna b cool.... sitting ard e beach n slack... chit chat, gossip, play scrabble, stone, splash ard e sea n snack... =) no cycling though.. ahaha... i'm planning to spend min. there... seriously.. i'm going broke..... aaaahhhhhh.... i need a job..... i hope fri's interview would b of some use... cherlyn u better pray!!!!
siaw's coming down on.... fri!!!!! whoopie!!!! i cant wait to see her!!!! either on fri or sat!! alalallalalalalallalala!!! i'm feeeling so HIGH now... waalalallala...
oh yana!! pls pls pls rem to bring cam tmr!! whee.... n dun mind me wearing my bikini n shorts n all!!! oh oh oh!!! i so cant wait!! i've already packed my stuff!!!! ahahah......
i'm gonna toast... i'm gonna toast!!! I'M GONNA TOAST!!!!! *jumps ard in circles in glee* whee......
ahaha... ok... i'm too high now..... n guess wat???? haha... i shant reveall.... *heh* i'm evil.....
zoom.. off i go... in really high spirits!!!
1:21:00 pm
it wasnt a job interview.. it was a stupid network marketing shiet... garz... travelled all e way to EUNOS somemore... growls.....
3:34:00 pm
oh oh oh.. it's gonna b mon tmr!!! n i'll b going fer a job interview at everitt rd!! i'm so excited!! hee.. my 2nd job interview in my whole life!! heh... n i better beware wat type of a company it is.. coz i still dunno how they got hold of my no... yups... mabbe i'll try searching on e internet later....
okies.. hang on fer e photos of my earrings.. got 28 pairs at the moment... =) jerry's suppose to upload it to yahoo... so hang on!! =) $3 to $6... all way below market rate!!! i swear!! even e most ex pair tt i'm selling is like half e price of wat's sold outside!! so yeaps... really cheap...
my fingers r itchy... i wanna do... i dunno... ahhahaha... i shld go learn swimming soon eh?? anybody game to go jurong east swimming complex w me?? >_< i like e wave pool.. n this coming wk sec n pri still having skool!! so it wont b packed!! heh...
met up w my union camp councillors fer e upcoming union camp... cool bunch... a lot of big shots in nussu.. ahaha... biz comm president n vice-president.. nussu ex-co member, last yr's union camp's director n i cant rem already.. ahaha.. nice peeps... though i didnt get to meet ken.... e biz comm president.. (i think.. rite jerry?) ahahah... cant wait to work w them..... 12 of us in total in 1 og... n i bet lishan's gonna haf a 'fun' time if she's suppose to make like 30-40 friendship bands fer e whole og including councillors... aahahha.... mabbe i can volunteer to help her i suppose.... provided i'm not working full-time..
hm.. shld i go fer ntu nbs' party on wed at zouk?? it's mambo nite... i can enter free or buy tix at 16bucks n get 2 free drinks.... hm.... but i dun exactly drink... hrmph.... dunno lar..... when e time comes den i decide... hahaha....
i wanna go lib n borrow books to read... but i cant borrow... coz i still havent clear my lib fines.. ahaha.. i think almost 10bucks... lazy man..... n broke..... wait tilll.. i get my next tuition pay i suppose.. ahhaha..
okies.. time to stone.. ciaoz!!!!
11:18:00 am
hee hee.... i've onli had 2 hours of sleep last nite.. heh... julia's bdae chalet was a blast.... =) was luffing, chatting, playing card games n all tt... fun!! =) esp listening to all of cailing's weird experiences.. ahahaha... n i didnt knoe enbin can b so sacarstic!! seriously.. so tired now... wan to sleep.. but cant coz i juz ate my med... n also.. i found out tt enbin plays bridge seriously.. he'd count how many hearts r out etc.. n tries to rem wat cards haf been put out already!! i dun even bother lorz.... ok.... not as much.. ahahaha.. n i realised bluff is not my game.. ahaha.. i always end up having plenty of cards... sheesh man.....
n i tell ya.. it's blardy spooky... outta nowhere, this guy got my no. n called me last nite asking me whether i'm still looking fer a job!!!! like wtf!! i never did put my name w any agency lorz!! freako lorz.... n it's all e way at eunos!!!! everitt rd there! like garz... i hope my job wont b there lorz.... otherwise everyday travel frm boon lay to eunos is super far can??? n esp at rush hour... i'll die standing on e blardy train squashed btw all those irritating working adults.. garz.. n i hope e job better b sth decent man... seriously... n heng e guy said can bring 1 fren down.. ahaha... so i asked gina... den she said she got job already... so i asked lq.. ahaha.. baskit... she stay so near there can??? hrmph..
n i'm so super sleepy now..... bye bye.....
i'm feeling richer!! finally got my tuition pay!! heh....
1:11:00 pm
still waiting fer my tuition kid's reply... actuallly... i'm still considering whether to go fer sth or not.... i'm toying w tt thot.. oh well.... hee..... n p.s. it's nothing dirty...
it's kinda cool to knoe how u actually knoe this person thru a mutual fren.. n tt person's other half(ie gf/bf) is actually someone tt u knoe already... it really shows how small e world is... really.. i had my sci camp og meeting yest.. liling, alex, joanne n weisheng were there... got to knoe liling... she's a chem major.. n i never saw her b4!! oh well... not like i really pay close attention to who's in chem major n all tt... n weisheng's gf is actually cheryl!! my senior in mg n ac!! never knew tt!! so cool!! ahaha.. yeaps... i had a fun time w them brainstorming ideas fer e banner n id tags.. ahaha... i never knew it would b so tough... garz... n junwei is happily in europe... fer hols mind u... fer almost a mth!!! darn it.... it would cost like 10-20K man!!! growls... lucky guy.. n he owns a car.. ahahaha.... n we indirectly said tt he's gonna b e welfare senior!! ahhah.. kidding lar.. oh wellz.... shh.. cannot let him knoe.. yeaps.. n it's freaking difficult to come out w design can??? we onli managed to link wassup to a question mark.. (?) i'm serious.. garz... ahahha... n me n liling kinda won e argument tt simplicity is gd.. whee..
i seriously need to go to e beach n tan!! i dun care how fat i'm gonna look in my bikini... but i need a tan!! w/o e help of my stupid expired tanning oil.. (ew..) it didnt really work anyway..
earrings fer sale!!
cheap earrings!
i need to sell at least 30 pairs!!
so pls help me!!
thx!!
i needa... sleep!!! hahaah.... i'm e pig!!! whee.. n i juz found out last nite tt i gotta pay fer union camp too!! tt's gonna making me so broke... seriously... i spent like 200 in a wk.. n i didnt buy much things mind u... i didnt buy clothes n all tt.... garz.... screwed rite??? luckily later got tuition pay.. whee.... but muz save... i need income... dammit.... to whoever's reading this.... quick help me promote my earrings!!
i wonder how nite cycling is like... fer one... i cant cycle... so i wont b able to join... n fer two.. i dun fancy e idea of a sleepy-headed me cycling on expressway... seriously... i'd rather b in e safety car... n fer 3... i cant last long w/o toilets nearby.. ahaha...
n i think i'm gonna freak out fer fright nite... i may juz faint on e spot... seriously... i still rem last yr sci camp.... i can holding onto adrian's arm so tightly.. ahaha.. n stupid ghost made me scream once... garz.. but it was pretty much fun.. =) n this yr... it's at sentosa.. AGAIN.. spooky~~
ok.... this is my 2nd post of today.. e first post i took it frm www.funkygrad.com... it's so nice n touching.. *awwww* i cant even imagine wat my life would b 1 yr down e rd much less 30 or even 50 yrs later when white hair would haf replaced my black hair..
was at funky grad juz now coz jerry told me last nite tt there got interesting forums... yeaps.. read abt e ms singapore universe one... which leads me to rem abt e channel 8 show interviewing e 3 winners.. ahaha.... n i was having a gd luff at marilyn tan i think... e 1st runner up.... firstly e way she speaks chinese is amusing... not e kan-tang type... but... u get my idea.... n she was insisting tt she's not an ah-lian.. coz she believes tt ah-lian r those who r not v well educated blah blah blah... den i was luffing so hard till my stomach was hurting... havent she heard of e word meant fer angmoh ah-lians who r quite highly educated???? it's bimbo.. seriously... she's damn hilarious lar.... she was like... wo bu shi ah-lian... ah lian shi na xie mei you du heng duo shu he bu hu jia biao jun ying yu de ren.. (i'm not an ah-lian.. ah lians r those who never study a lot n dunno how to speak proper english....) like sheesh... tt was so bimbotic already... haiz... enuff abt her... n jeanette aw was actually frm nus!! president of dance ensemble somemore!!! interesting eh? funkygrad got many interesting things to read lar.. ahahha.... go read if u guys got time....
ooo.... i juz rem... i better ask marc if he's still gonna hold class bbq.... but if i rem correctly, he said it's gonna b in june.. oh wells... busy mth fer me..
haf u ever looked at urself in ur old photos.. like when u're in sec skool or sth n was cursing at urself deeply abt how bad ur fashion sense was n all tt?? how toot-looking ur haircut was n all tt? hm.. i was juz looking thru... n was actually not doing wat i mentioned above... but i actually wanted to go back to those day.. i'd rather b toot-looking n haf bad fashion sense n studying in mg than slogging my guts out now... serious!
okies lar... it's time fer lunch.... ciaoz..
12:05:00 pm
I have a friend who is falling in love. She honestly claims the sky is bluer. Mozart moves her to tears. She has lost 15 pounds and looks like a cover girl. "I am young again!" she shouts exuberantly.
As my friend raves on about her new love, I've taken a good look at my old one. My husband of almost 20 years, Scott, has gained 15 pounds. Once a marathon runner, he now runs only down hospital halls. His hairline is receding and his body shows signs of long working hours and too many candy bars. Yet he can still give me a certain look across a restaurant table and I want to ask for the check and head home. When my friend asked me "What will make this love last?" I ran through all the obvious reasons: commitment shared interests, unselfishness, physical attraction, and communication. Yet there's more. We still have fun. Spontaneous good times. Yesterday, after slipping the rubber band off the rolled newspaper, Scott flipped it playfully at me: this led to an all-out war. Last Saturday at the grocery, we split the list and raced each other to see who could make it to the checkout first. Even washing dishes can be a blast. We enjoy simply being together.
And there are surprises.
One time I came home to find a note on the front door that led me to another note, then another, until I reached the walk-in closet. I opened the door to find Scott holding a "pot of gold" (my cooking kettle) and the "treasure" of a gift package. Sometimes I leave him notes on the mirror and little presents under his pillow.
There is understanding.
I understand why he must play basketball with the guys. And he understands why, once a year, I must get away from the house, the kids - and even him - to meet my sisters for a few days of nonstop talking and laughing.
There is sharing<.
Not only do we share household worries and parental burdens - we also share ideas. Scott came home from a convention last month and presented me with a thick historical novel. Though he prefers thrillers and science fiction, he had read the novel on the plane. He touched my heart when he explained it was because he wanted to be able to exchange ideas about the book after I'd read it.
There is forgiveness.
When I'm embarrassingly loud and crazy at parties, Scott forgives me. When he confessed losing some of our savings in the stock market, I gave him a hug and said, "It's okay. It's only money."
There is sensitivity.
Last week he walked through the door with that look that tells me it's been a tough day. After he spent some time with the kids, I asked him what happened. He told me about a 60-year old woman that had a stroke. He wept as he recalled the woman's husband standing beside her bed, caressing her hand. How was he going to tell this husband of 40 years that his wife would probably never recover? I shed a few tears myself. Because of the medical crisis. Because there were still people who have been married 40 years. Because my husband is still moved and concerned after years of hospital rooms and dying patients.
There is faith.
Last Tuesday a friend came over and confessed her fear that her husband is losing his courageous battle with cancer. On Wednesday I went to lunch with a friend who is struggling to reshape her life after divorce. On Thursday a neighbor called to talk about the frightening effects of Alzheimer's disease on her father-in-law's personality. On Friday a childhood friend called long-distance to tell me her father had died. I hung up the phone and thought, This is too much heartache for one week.
Through my tears, as I went out to run some errands, I noticed the boisterous orange blossoms of the gladiolus outside my window. I heard the delighted laughter of my son and his friend as they played. I caught sight of a wedding party emerging from a neighbor's house. The bride, dressed in satin and lace, tossed her bouquet to her cheering friends. That night, I told my husband about these events. We helped each other acknowledge the cycles of life and that the joys counter the sorrows. It was enough to keep us going.
Finally, there is knowing.
I know Scott will throw his laundry just shy of the hamper every night; he'll be late to most appointments and eat the last chocolate in the box. He knows that I sleep with a pillow over my head; I'll lock us.
I guess our love lasts because it is comfortable. No, the sky is not bluer: it's just a familiar hue. We don't feel particularly young: we've experienced too much that has contributed to our growth and wisdom, taking its toll on our bodies, and created our memories. I hope we've got what it takes to make our love last. As a bride, I had Scott's wedding band engraved with Robert Browning's line "Grow old along with me!"
We're following those instructions. "If anything is real, the heart will make it plain." There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some love that don't go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be blest to end up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity.Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who cherishes you forever. Hope you find this kind of love in your life.
5:25:00 pm
handmade earrings anyone??? i'm open to orders!! =) juz spent another bomb on earring materials.. =P n it'll b really cheap.. unless ex beads or many beads r used.. seriously... hahaha.. quick tell me orders!! ahaha... if in bulk even cheaper!! ahahah... photos will b up.. soon... when i finish making.. n mothers' day is coming!!! so grab a pair fer ur mums!!!
so exciting!! n i may even wanna proceed on to necklace n all tt!! hahaha.. chockers etc!!
maaf mbak khalsom.. saya minggu ini sibuk sekali.. minggu yang lalu kita pergi ke pantai sentosa boleh? saya hari rabu ada rapat lah.. kapan anda bebas minggu yang lalu? i hope u understand.. ahahha..
went back to skool today... heh... n there was a rabbit n 2 guinea pigs in the clubroom!! e rabbit is so so cute!! wanted to touch it.... but... had to do work.. ahaha... damn... i wan a dwarf rabbit!!!! but it's so so so ex!! garz...
i'm trying so hard to save up for many many things!!!
i desperately need some part-time... i hope eve will rem to msg me abt e roadshow thingy.... i really hope so... okies... time to check if my mailbox got kena flooded again... ciaoz...
11:13:00 am
alrite.. this is fer last nite�s post�. i was lazy to come online to post it.. ahha..
yum! juz had malay kueh n durian!! n there's gonna b mangoes tmr!! whee.. ok.. i knoe i'm lame n it's cheap thrill... but my mum seldom buy fruits other den apples n oranges.... n how boring can tt be? n now my fingers r fused w durian smell!! heh... i like!!
whee.. if ryan dun reply, think tmr i dun hafta go skool.. ahahah.. den i can juz go holland v n get my earring materials... tues is shopping day!! wed is stoning day... thurs is julia's 21st bday!! fri... is sleeping coz most prob thurs nite donning at julia's chalet.. sat got union camp ogl meet up!! ahaha.. my own og tt is.. i cant wait!! so exciting!! heh.. n oh.. i juz rem.. my make-up tuition tt i couldnt make it today coz i wasnt feeling well at all.... felt quite bad coz her exams coming up... i was already at cck having breakfast.. den suddenly i was breaking out in cold sweat.. feeling hot n cold at e same time n all tt.... it really felt horrible... =( sms my kid n postponed it till... she also dunno when... came home n had porridge cooked fer me.. n had baby food as appetiser!! ahah... i muz say it tastes horrible w/o salt... growls.. ahahah... but now i'm a-ok... except fer a headache now n den.. i dunno wat's happening to me... keep feeling unwell these few yrs.... haiz... muz b coz i stopped training... seriously....
shouts to khal!! i miss u too!! n yana n a few others!!!!!! -big hugz- to all of u!!!
garz.. n i better arrange my photos soon... needa get ready to pack to move hse.. again... i hate moving hse... so troublesome... i dun mind e packing part... i absolutely hate the unpacking part.... =( n to make things worst... i haf 3 hamsters to worry abt when i shift hse... growls.. tt sucks...
whee.. my manicure is still going... strong i suppose.. though it got chipped off a little.. heh..
had a great dinner at rw's 21st bdae celebration.. e food was great.. n stupid thing happened tt i still cant help but laugh when i think abt it.... hahaha.. p is so lame.... ahaha... but i cant really say e same when it came to karaoke.. it's like he invited his pro pro vocal klassmates... so it's like.. weird... cant anyhow sing outta tune n all tt... in short.. cant sing crappily.. can sing self-composed eng version of chinese songs n all tt lar... n i muz agree w jerry.. it's difficult to mix diff grp of pple... like it's weird... plus it was a formal sit-down kinda dinner... so less interaction... n there was like a lack of common topic.. u get wat i mean?? ok... i knew eve... can chit-chat a bit... but there werent much to tok abt except like mabbe skool? as fer vanessa.... ya... i already knew her back in mg... but.... tt was so long ago... dunno lar..... i juz suck at socialising.... yes... i can b really chatty.... but when it comes to playing a co-host.... i seriously.... dun like it... no offence to rw or p if u guys ever read this... but p u did a great job over at ur side.. =)
hm... i'm still hesitating... shld i get a pc or laptop?? even the sales guy recommended me to get a laptop coz it has got mobility..... but it's e price!!! i dunno lar... but i better check w skool computer co-op first..
hm... i shall make a wish list...
1. couple wallet.. -grinz-
2. pink/red/white skirt of rather thick material
3. flowy kinda skirt...
4. semi-formal dress
5. tube top
6. jeans? (my mango jeans is dying..)
7. 1 or 2 smart casual top
8. master the skill to make earrings..
9. a new bikini(?)
10. more tops(?)
in no particular order.... hahahahaha.... =)
10:11:00 am
whee.... last few days were enjoyable.. =) thurs went toa payoh to find materials to make earrings.. finally found a decent shop there... n after doing all e calculations, i realised that actually, the cost price of 1 pair of earring is so unbelieveably low!!!! goodness...... but i shant disclose it here.. haha.. den at nite went fer karaoke w rw, sm, p n jerry... aaahhaha... sang fer abt 6 hours till 2 plus!!!! can u believe it? ahaha... sang till my throat was dying man... really.... n we sang..... she bangs!!! ahahah.. b4 tt we went to hmv.. n heard a bit of william hung's cd... my goodness.. he really cannot make it... i bet those who bought his cd... will list it as their most embarrassing cd 1 yr later.. i'm sure of tt!! later going to rw's 21st bday party... ok.. more of a dinner lar.. smart casual dress code... so sianz... n tt equals to wearing heels!! tt's e sianz part... oh wellz...
n i'm so glad tt she's going to work soon.. n i'll haf some peace at home b4 i go out fer lunch.... whee.... roti prata.. here i come!!! but e funny thing is.. i'll b wearing smart casual stuff to eat prata n drink dinosaur!! ahahha.. so crap... oh well... den to jerry's hse to get put my wateva inspiration tt i haf into shape... ahahah... earrings time!!!
i initially had sth to blog abt... but i forgot wat it was.... growls... oh well... i haf horrible short term memory...
i cant wait to go sentosa!! *winks*
