8:31:00 am
whee!!.. yest i played capt's ball... n ran 4 rounds rd e track!! i'm so happy!! haha.. but den again.. i kinda twisted my ankle while playing capt's ball.. seriously.. presto is not a gd shoe.. it's juz all looks n nothing else.. bleargh.. no side support no nothing.. haiz.. lucky no swollen ankle n no torn shoe.. oh well oh well oh well.. n surprisingly, i'm not aching today! hehe.. amazing! n i actually felt gd while running!! boy boy boy! sianz.. today mass tutorial.. n yest's org lab was horrible.. daphne's fumehood was flooding coz she never put e outlet rubber tubing fer the condenser into the sink-hole to drain the water away.. but instead juz happily put e tubing on e table onli.. free one.. damn.. but i didnt witness it.. haiz.. wasted.. den mich n i had soooo little crystals tt we were suppose to crystallise.. sighz yet again.. n we had to produce aspirin yest! cool huh? actually aspirin is acetylsalicylic acid! hee.. haiz.. k lar.. i better b printing my notes already..
10:05:00 pm
ok.. e world's really too small.. hui leng frm my chem lab last sem is in my thurs' bahasa klass.. so is ben frm my last sem's chem tut klass.. n he is also my klassmate again fer this sem's chem tut!! goodness!! n jamie e miss smarty pants fer my mon's bahasa klass is also in today's bahasa klass!! hehe.. coincidences..
i'm piled w work.. so most prob e next few daysSss i wont b updating my blog at all.. e most is check my chatterbox onli.. haiz..
i've got prelab assignments to do.. but i dunno my mechanisms.. arghz.. n i've gotta try n finish reading tmr's political sci readings which r hopelessly boring.... but i think i wont b able to.. n daphne still hasnt called me or msg me back yet.. sighz.. i'm super sleepy now.. sheesh.. shld i go skool early tmr to finish up my pre lab assignment? hm.. n i still haf inter-comm games at 6.. garz.. headache!! i betta go now!! ciaoz~
9:04:00 pm
i'm happy tt i've finally settled down to do work.. =) so proud of myself.. n i'm gonna do more boring sai baba.. no offence to whoever tt worships him.. but my political sci lecturer really looks like him.. hee.. juz printed out my cm1131 notes fer first law of thermodynamics part II.. i seriously haf no frigging idea wat's on e power pt slides... die already.. but i like e lecturer.. so grandfatherly.. hehe.. n he's really nice too.. today had a super short cm1121 lect.. 1 hour instead of e normal 2.. heh.. when e lecturer finished e 1st set of notes.. he asked whether we wanna continue.. n obviously all said NO!!! mabbe except fer some NERDS.. i mean seriously.. n i didnt really understand a thing tt he was tokking abt.. n there's like these 2 weirdos tt're really freaky.. they like stalking na like tt.. scary mary.. oh well.. heck them! na fight them off w wateva kungfu u haf!! hehe..
wah.. i'm like super sleepy now.. yawns.. yay! there's AI3 tonite!! hehe.. cant wait! n tmr nite too!! heh.. oh damn.. fri got lab.. sighz.. =( it's sure gonna suck big time..
haiz.. ok.. i shall kwai kwai go off n do some work while watching TV now!! hehe..
1:46:00 pm
my mum juz caught e baby lizard, tt was lurking ard my room last nite, this morning! hee.. now i can sleep in peace.. heh.. well.. i think i slept like a baby last nite come to think of it.. my body clock's funny.. i'll juz automatically wake up once i haf abt 6 hours of sleep.. weird.. but obviously i went back to sleep this morning.. haha.. juz a short entertainment fer me rite after lunch b4 i start doing my work.. i like going fer bahasa klasses though i onli went fer 2 so far.. it's fun.. n e 2 hours juz whizz pass like a split second! hee.. n e most fun part is luffing at ourselves fer making blunders time n again.. heh.. esp when kena 'questioned' by ibu fanny.. hehe.. saya hari ini tida pergi ke sekolah!!!!! hee.. go decipher wat i typed.. =)) yana, khal n whoever else tt understand.. shh.. dun let e cat outta e bag.. =) i like this..
dorcas.. e world IS really small.. n NUS is EVEN SMALLER.. hehe.. i'm serious..
pV=nRT is the ideal gas law equation.. n it's driving me nuts w other equations like VDW's n wat not.. dammit.. i feel as if i'm studying phy all over again.. n can juz imagine oon hua rite in front of me now n going on n on abt those ideal gas equations.. ew.. she's a gd teacher alrite.. but i juz kinda hate phy now.. esp when i got a huge C fer it.. bleargh.. n i actually used to like phy n it was like my best subj besides e maths back in sec 4 prelims.. imagine tt! hahaha.. gotcha!
i'm juz getting sleepier by e min.. e sky's getting darker.. e wind's blowing.. e air temp is rather cool.. perfect conditions fer sleeping e whole frigging day.. but no.. i'm pushing myself to do work.. n go fer a jog later if e weather permits.. at e rate i'm snacking, slacking, eating n sleeping.. wow.. i'm gonna b a huge fat pig waiting to get slaughtered at e end of e sem.. WONDERFUL..
yest met jessie.. my colleague when we were working in sentosa.. =) had a short chat w her.. n she told me she went back to visit e permanent staff.. n there were plenty of changes.. wow! i still havent been back to visit them.. soon soon..
hm.. n i think it's rather weird.. i can easily rem how much i bought certain things fer.. but i cant rem all my chem stuff... hrmph.. i better change tt manz..
sighz.. i've got loads of things to read.. my changing landscapes n stupid public governance in developing nations.. hm.. does high civil servant pay = low corruption rates? hm.. it really leaves my to wonder.. this gal brought up e question.. tt since e pay is so high, will pple purposely become a civil servant juz solely fer e money or coz they genuinely wanna b a prim n proper civil servant.. anyone wanna give their views on this issue? hee..
n strangely.. my commenting system is STILL not working.. thanx ah klink family.. oh well... time fer me to get my fat arse to my chair at my study table!
3:48:00 pm
juz finished an ultra tiring session of physical chemistry webcast lect.. bleargh.. treating myself to a packet of longan red date drink n some blogging w music b4 i proceed to do more work.. sighz.. paying attention is so energy draining.. esp when e lecturer speaks damn fast.. haiz.. i muz learn to multi-task better..
was supposed to start work earlier.. but tt was coz i thot there wouldnt b huan zhu gege showing on channel 8.. hee.. n when i saw huan zhu gege showing.. i juz couldnt resist a gd 2 hour of watching xiao yan zi n her antics.. =p den had a quick lunch coz my mum was rushing off.. so there.. n den i decided to do my webcast immediately after a full lunch.. not a gd idea at all.. but i finished it.. n learnt my equations.. actually i think i learn better by listening to webcast.. coz i can repeat n repeat those parts tt i dun understand.. but i'm not gonna use tt as an excuse fer me to not attend lect.. oof.. tmr long day yet again.. but i'm looking forward to my bahasa indonesia class!! can meet up w my klassmates n laugh at ourselves in trying to pronounce those words n trying hard to listen to e teacher which we call ibu fanny.. =) n as it so happens.. it's nathaniel's mum.. coincidences of all coincidences.. but lately i havent been going on icq.. so havent been tokking to him.. hee..
someone told me i look like my 2nd sis w my new haircut.. hrmph.. do i look tt much like her?? but she's how tanned n i'm how fair now!! gosh.. i dun mind staying fair.. but being fair makes me look much fatter!! ew.. n as promised.. i'm gonna start jogging this wk.. i swear i'll.. it's gonna b trying fer me to balance all my skool work n projects n wat not.. sighz.. 1 major project to do research n loads of fieldwork.. plus a 15 double-spaced political sci essay on gender issues in the malaysian parliament plus loads of lab reports tt's gonna b due.. sucks.. n not including keeping up w my lectures, esp fer my political sci readings.. bleargh..
havent been blogging everyday fer quite a while.. i guess tt's a good sign.. i can resist e temptation of blogging.. so tt means i m able to settle down to do work instead of blogging.. which means a while later i gotta b typing out e survey questions fer my project.. haiz.. n i still haf e sci club old old photos waiting fer me to archive it.. great man..
ok.. it's time fer me to publish this post, finish up e last 2 ferro rocher in e box, type out e survey, print it, print my chem tutorials n do it.... watch some tv(hey.. i did work today! so i can afford to relax! hee..).. n sleep early most importantly..
11:25:00 pm
i WAS listening to webcast lect.. den my gong yuan 2000 started.. so went to watch.. den i decided it wasnt all tt great at all.. after e short break, i shall continue frm 27.12min of my cm1131 physical chemistry lect.. yay! fantastic.. i juz totally feel like sleeping now.. didnt sleep enuff last nite.. went to watch last samurai at 1015pm at ps.. it was not bad i muz say.. i like e last part.. rather touching.. but it has too much gory scenes.. much worst den wat i was expecting.. all those blood.. n how e samurai leader would commit suicide after losing a fight or sth.. gross n stupid.. but i like tom cruise! hee.. n e small kid was kinda cute too! heh.. reached home at ard 130am.. oh well.. wasted money on cabfare..
den khal, yana, noorin n lingz came over this afternoon.. =) had a great time catching up, gossiping n watnot.. hehe.. n lingz got hopelessly lost when she drove over to my place.. haha.. n i was horrible in giving directions.. but den again.. i still dunno my area very well.. oh well.. hee.. it was simple but gd fun.. =) khal n noorin we shall go out on tues aye? tt's provided if i dun haf my changing landscapes project.. or too much chem tutorial to finish..
dammit.. i think i'm too sleepy to do anymore webcast.. i shall juz print out my notes, do my webcast tmr morning b4 i go out.. den.. erm.. do some reading on my political sci i guess.. i'm blardy lagging in my readings man.. die.. dead gone.. i better go check when i can declare s/u option fer my political sci module manz..
selemat malam.. it's time fer me to go off now.. ciaoz..
4:52:00 pm
hm.. early happy chinese new yr guys! haf a great time collecting ang pows.. it's gonna b a skool work catch up time fer me.. -meow- i guess tmr will juz b slacking at home.. fri going over to jerry's hse? sat khal n gang most prob coming over to my place.. sun teaching tuition.. hm.. damn.. like no time to study like tt lehz.. oh well...
played a bit of gunbound juz now.. heh.. n jerry drove me home.. he still suck at it.. muahaha..
damn.. i'm feeling sleepy.. growls..
7:41:00 pm
i've got flu..
i almost died while clubbing last nite..
i had a great time last nite w my og pple during dinner..
my nose is red n sore now..
i'm darn sleepy..
i dun feel like going to skool tmr..
i still haf no new skirt n a pair of shoes fer cny..
time fer dinner...
wondering where's my ang pow frm my sis..
hrmph..
9:17:00 pm
haha.. some things never change.. gy is still e same old person.. haha.. damn funny.. i still can rem those free periods w e 3 musketeers(?).. i miss those daily conversations w g,lq n sl.. miss going to skool w ll.. been saying these a few times already.. but really.. i miss it loads..
surfing on friendster.. i'm really bored.. sighz.. oh damn.. i juz rem i havent repainted my toenails yet! ciaoz! hee..
11:40:00 am
oh oh oh.. i'm suppose to b d/ling my organic chem notes now.. heck.. irritating.. i hate e lecturer.. n he's blardy brainless fer a doctorate guy.. he dunno wat is uploading multiple files into the ivle workbin.. dumbass.. hrmph.. n each lect he finishes at least 30 over slides.. chi niao niao.. n he doesnt even go thru everything thoroughly.. *(^%#@% damn suay to haf this kinda lecturer.. hrmph.. i'm off to print notes n to study already..
10:36:00 pm
call me bo liao.. haha.. but i've been playing gunbound in skool e last 2 days.. muahaha.. fun fun.. jerry's been playing it fer my account though.. i got my jap umbrella n chun-li hairstyle!! hehe.. decided to make my character all jap-py..
haiz.. got a few screw-ups fer my tutorials.. n now i mainly end after 4.. sianz..
haha.. juz now wynne called me fer og outing this sat!! super cool.. it's been.. 2 yrs since our last og outing when i was in j1? gosh.. i seriously wonder how many pple will go.. 4 others frm my klass frm my og too.. hee.. wondering if they r going too.. yay! adeline said she's going coz she heard frm wynne tt she's going too.. haha.. hm.. is andre going too? hrmph.. lets see who else.. i cant really rem already.. oh well..
my throat is itchy.. garz.. n it's been so dry n scratchy.. ah! sianz.. i hope i wont fall sick at all.. dammit.. otherwise i this sat kena confined at home already lorz.. yawns.. n tt means i wont b able to chiong!! no! tt cant b true!!!
dang.. my dad's not coming home this cny.. =( sighz.. so weird.. it'll not b e same.. 1 less ang pow this yr.. hrmph.. n my mum gives super little now.. =( growls.. ok.. i shant b so greedy..
tmr i shall b a goody little gal n stay home.. i'm gonna read my political sci notes.. i swear i'll.. jerry's been reading n studying while i've been.. slacking.. muahaha.. n oh ya.. repaint my toenails.. haha..
i love cute small kids!! hee.. i still rem i was on some public transport.. shld b e mrt lar.. den there was this small kid laughing n laughing away! gosh.. his/her laughter was so so infectious! i couldnt help but start giggling away too.. n jerry caught it frm me.. hee.. n juz now when he was sending me home in e afternoon, there was this little gal in e pram.. she was so adorable.. but i think she kena burnts n e wounds juz healed.. could still see e redness.. ouch man.. poor thing.. reminds me of my fren's lil sister.. oh well.. shant elaborate.. sleepy!! i better go rest early.. i muz haf enuff rest.. den i wont fall sick!
11:11:00 pm
i cut my hair!! hee.. it's short! guess will take pic of it n post it up or sth.. hehe.. i need ang pows.. den i can go dye my hair w streaks of red!! whee.. juz e cny mood! heh heh..
ok.. i'm darn sleepy now.. shall go sleep soon.. today's political sci lect was surprisingly ok.. i didnt fall asleep.. n i understood most of e stuff.. juz tt after e break i lost my concentration.. haha.. n i managed to understand his weird accent.. oh wellz.. n made frenz w this swedish gal on exchange.. interesting! i cant wait to get to knoe her better.. =p
1:30:00 pm
happy anni darling! -muacks-
5:15:00 pm
whee.. now i'm juz trying super hard to while my time away while waiting fer jerry.. hehe.. played gunbound.. den got a little sick of it.. now typing this.. hehz..
went to skool fer introductory lecture fer bahasa.. waste of time.. yeaps.. n den had organic chem lect.. i tell ya.. it was a pure waste of time.. e lecturer kept telling us to read frm e txtbk.. den wat's e pt of having him as a lecturer? sheesh.. he juz gets on my nerves.. seriously.. stupid weird accent tt sounds half american n dunno wat else.. cannot make it larz.. e whole lect grp was super restless.. most pple were tokking away.. i was trying hard to pay attention n not fall asleep.. n he finished all his 48 slides!! dammit... 12 more wks of lectures.. 24 more lects... hundreds n hundreds of sheets of ppr gonna b wasted.. damn.. n i forgot.. 24 more lects facing e blardy lousy lecturer.. haha...
yeaps.. juz b4 lect started, this couple came in w e same t-shirt.. sheesh.. bright red addidas t-shirt.. ok.. e shirt was not bad.. but i cant stand e guy.. seriously.. got 2 words written across his forehead.. kiam4 pa4.. haha.. ok.. fer those who dun understand, it means deserve to get beaten up.. =P i'm serious.. michelle agreed w me too.. i'm mean.. hee haw..
yay! paul n frenz going fer sci bash next sat! yay! at least i help ryan get tix off his hands.. hee.. i'm nice.. at least 7 tix off his hands.. he shld b happy enuff.. anybody feeling rich to donate money to me fer some charity?? 20 beneficiaries ok!
somebody is brushing his teeth w his electric toothbrush behind.. show off onli.. oof.. i'm hungry.. i ate lunch at 1115 this morning.. b4 my chem lect.. hm.. wat do i feel like eating fer dinner? meeting p n rw in town later tog w jerry.. hm..
y does pple think tt my hair is pure black? it's NOT!! got some weird brown colour on it.. ok.. i admit it's not tt obvious.. but.. my hair colour does not resemble black at all!! goodness me.. all those impulsive urge to colour my hair haf juz killed n damaed my hair badly.. sighz.. i wanna do dark pink streaks!!! i think it looks damn damn nice! but sighz.. i guess i gotta save up first.. hm.. tuition tmr at 2.. oh well.. i hope i still rem my sec 3 maths! yay! next wk got early ang pow coming in coz my bro-in-law n sis going back to my bro-in-law's hometown in m'sia! whoopie! i hope it'll b a HUGE one.. muahaha.. den i can go buy my army green esprit bag! it's so huge n nice! i love it.. can dump all my stuff inside when i go skool! oh yeah.. i cant wait!! hee.. dunno whether i shld get this other baby blue top frm esprit too.. i guess i'll see how first man.. i needa get a non-denim pair of skirt n my pair of leather slippers frm bugis! oh ya.. my boardshorts too! n i guess basic tops frm u2.. hee.. i juz love u2.. i guess it beats wearing giordano tops.. but den again.. i'm so budget nowadays tt i do wear those plain tops frm giordano.. good n cheap! hee.. as long as i haf sth cheap n decent to wear to skool can already.. haha.. so fer now it'll b giordano, bossini, u2 etc.. n mabbe once in a while nike or sth.. heh.. shucks.. i can juz go on n on abt clothes.. ok.. i shall shuddup now..
hm.. was shopping w gina yest fer her present to viet.. hee.. but she couldnt find anything she likes.. or no more size.. heh.. i'm like eyeing certain things to give to someone already.. haha.. i'm really dreaming n asking myself when will e day when i can juz go into tiffany n co n buy those super ex n pretty jewellery, go into armani, guess, laura ashley, prl, etc etc n shop till i drop.. i suppose e day will never come.. oh well.. i think i shall juz settle fer not-tt-ex stuff.. la dee dum.. i'm HUNGRY! he's done.. but i still gotta wait fer him to bathe.. urghz.. okies.. i shall amuse myself on yahoo now.. ciaoz.. haf a gd day everyone!
10:38:00 am
i currently haf 3 calendars staring at me.. one's those kind tt hangs on e wall in front of my study table w 12 exotic birds as pics fer each mth.. one winnie e pooh toy w a small calendar on my comp table.. n another one is those kind of standing calendar tt haf really nice coastal pics of e pacific.. hee.. i'm juz crazy..
i was juz thinking.. i'm a rather bad fren actually.. i dun really make a lot of effort in keeping in close contact w my frenz tt i really trust.. i juz assume tt they'll b there fer me... ok.. i do admit tt they WILL b there when i need them... but.. if i dun tok to them or keep in contact n all tt, i'll juz end up w no more close frenz n onli haf my darling.. this is really bad.. dun b mistaken.. i love him to bits.. but i told myself b4 i got into this relationship tt i'd keep in close contact w my frenz n strike a balance btw him n my frenz.. but i'm not achieving it at all.. i see him like 6 days outta 7.. which i'm thankful of.. n tt juz leaves me 1 day to see my frenz a wk.. hm.. i guess it's all abt time management.. oh well..
later i'm going out w gina.. i was so tempted to say no when she called me last nite .. i suppose my conscience pricked me.. yes.. i do see her everytime i haf my chem lect.. but how often do i haf a gd tok w her? seldom.. we can clique really well.. haf similar views on things.. haf really similar tastes in clothes.. n we both haf another lame but gd fren, lq.. yeaps.. but gina's wat i'm not.. she's miss popular(u shld go out w her one day n u'd knoe wat i mean..), she's super nice, super hardworking now.. n she does keep in contact w her close frenz frm outside..
i'm not saying i'm no longer concern fer my frenz.. i still am.. i'm easily affected by wat other pple sayings.. i'm really interested in their well-being.. i wish fer all my frenz to b happy n carefree.. n if they need me, i'll b there fer them.. i'll try my very best to help them n do wateva i can within my limits.. pple do tell me i look blardy dao when they first see me.. is tt so? hm.. i guess.. tt's how i try to ward those shitty pple off?? i dunno.. pple asks me to go out w them as a grp.. i do wanna see some of them, catch up w them, joke w them n all tt.. but wat's stopping me is that i'd see some pple tt really irks me.. i shouldnt b so mean n all tt.. but i seriously dun care abt them.. so in e end, i sacrifice meeting whoever i wanna see juz so tt i dun hafta see certain pple.. i shldnt b doing tt.. i shld b hecking them n juz tok to whoever i wan to.. but.. it's too late now..
thanx gal(u knoe who u r..) fer telling me to stop being a whining bitch when i strike adversity.. come to me if u need an outlet. i love u gal.. thanx fer being there..
i love to daydream.. i always used to dream tt i'd finally leave in my own perfect world.. where onli my close frenz exist, jerry, my parents (in really gd mood), my sisters(who decides to b nice to me finally..), peaceful world, wonderfully cute doggie n hamster n chinchilla as my pets, perfect weather, being a tai tai e whole day, waiting fer jerry to come home frm navy base, playing w my kids in e garden w loads of colourful flowers, cooking blissfully w jerry when there's time etc.. gosh.. i'd really wish fer most of it to happen.. but it wont b happening fer now.. time fer me to snap outta it n get my fat arse studying..
i shall stop thinking y e hell i'm majoring in chemistry n juz study.. i shall stop complaining y e fuck i'm taking political science n juz study..
time fer me to grab sth to eat b4 going thru my organic chem stuff...
4:54:00 pm
yeah! i'm starting to give tuition this sun!! whoopie!! i'm so happy! now i got a source of income! hee.. i'm a happy gal! hee.. but first i still gotta get some guide bk or sth so i knoe e syllabus.. oh well..
went to holland v fer lunch juz now.. hee.. went to e pet shops there.. there's this pet lovers' center or sth.. there's this puppy there really cute! called frise or sth like tt!! e fur curly one!! heh.. i like! so cute! den went to this other pet shop at inside holland v shopping center.. e onli dog there is so so cute!! kept barking!! think it's a schnazer(however u spell tt..) yeaps.. n there's like many new shops at holland v now.. mabbe it's juz coz i too long never go there n walk ard already..
super tired now.. printed notes till 12plus 1 like tt last nite.. n woke up at 6!! urghz.. i hate my comp n printer.. sucks man.. oh well.. n no w cant d/l some notes n tutorials.. irritating.. later still hafta print.. oh well.. n den copy notes.. i will read my political sci notes later.. i swear i will!!
juz now at arts i met jean!! i havent spoken to her in ages! kinda lost contact when she went hwa chong n me to ac.. yeaps.. got her no. juz now.. gonna met up fer lunch w her soon!
e world is so so small!! hee.. juz read dorcas's blog.. i knew her thru cross as my senior.. i also knoe rw coz he's my track senior.. n both of them r childhood frenz.. n i knoe devin n dawn thru jerry.. n dorcas actually knoes devin!! n i knoe jenny as my cross senior too.. n jenny knoes devin frm church i guess!! world's really small!! n jerry was ogl to a few of my frenz too!! amazing! ok.. singapore is really too small.. n it's so coincidental!! man..
dammit.. i'm running outta a4 ppr to print my notes.. this sem sure die already.. sure got loads of notes to print.. damn.. tt's one thing abt taking so many arts modules at one time.. crap.. i juz ran outta ppr.. dammit.. sighz.. mabbe later i'll run out to popular n buy it or sth.. growls.. hm.. guess my ink will run out really fast this time rd.. hrmph.. i shall go stock up i guess.. i wonder if those ink refills thingy is gd.. hm.. piracy is no good.. hrmph..
darn sleepy.. it's tea time! whee...
i'm staying home to study tmr.. i swear i'll.. i havent been doing much since skool reopened..
11:12:00 pm
i'm having a whale of a time trying to d/l my notes.. haiz.. n lect's at 8am tmr! n it's already 11 plus now!! ahz... i'm so so sleepy now.. my organic chem lecturer is blardy lame.. cant stand him.. yucks.. haiz.. tmr go skool fer another lect again.. 1 stupid lect.. damn sianz.. waste of time.. but gotta go submit some stuff.. so ok lar.. not so bad.. oh well.. while waiting fer cherlyn i shall read my ps readings lar.. haiz.. damn thick.. 100 odd pages of super chim english.. can die! all e functions of public administration n all tt.. sighz.. i still dunno y i take political sci module.. oh well.. but i guess like wat e lecturer said, it'll b useful next time..
my mummy baked pineapple tarts juz now!! yummy! n almond cookies! yumz! n jerry n me helped her w e almond cookies after dinner time! yeaps.. (ok.. e progress is damn blardy slow fer my notes..) lemme go try e almond cookies now.. wahaha.. it's yummy! crunchy crunchy one! hee..
yay! plans r kinda out.. demanded wat i wanted fer tt day! whee.. haha.. m i mean or wat? anyone game fer african food? hee.. i'm not.. not those wild meat.. YUCKS! i wanna go igors!! but someone said no.. =(
bought my txtbooks today.. 2 bks n i spend 95 bucks! yes.. WTF!! oh well.. but i can use it fer 2 sems.. den after tt i can either sell it away or keep it.. hm.. i shall see lar.. i somehow like to keep txtbooks.. i dunno y.. i love to buy them.. but i dun exactly use them.. stupid rite? like in jc i bought so much study guides n txtbks fer phy.. but in e end also never really use.. n get a C onli.. sheesh.. felt darn stupid.. mabbe tt explains y i'm taking chem as my major.. oh well.. (there still isnt much progress fer my lect notes.. i refuse to print e word file..)
a while ago.. i saw really pretty flowers.... e blue roses at this particular shop was wonderfully done!! it was so so nice! e blue was a super nice shade.. den e other day at arts co-op, e hot pink gerbera was so beautiful!! ah! -hintz- anni is on sun.. heehaw.. (stupid prof goh.. ur notes aint loading!) -time fer more cookies- damn.. my mum refuse to gimme.. hrmph..
sucks.. i give up on e notes.. i'm too darn sleepy already.. OH YEAH!.. it's done!! muaha...
10:28:00 pm
ok.. things r back to.. almost normal.. i hope.. oh well..
today was so super slack.. e physical chem lecturer is damn damn lame.. n he is so boring.. n he started w proper lecture! but it was all those basics.. so e whole lt was actually yakking away.. den at e end of e lect, he told us wat he said during e lecture was impt.. but haha.. none of us bothered larz.. den had a 2h break b4 going fer changing landscapes.. sighz.. rather ok i guess.. saw loads of pple there.. n gosh.. like 80% of e pple taking tt module all frm sci lorz.. sheesh.. yeaps.. den haf yet another 2 hour break coz tut havent start yet.. had my political sci module at like 4.. gosh.. i was falling asleep.. heee.. quite interesting larz.. but.. ermz.. i cant really understand e lecturer.. seriously.. he got weird accent.. government becomes garment.. sheesh.. i was like huh? haha.. n there's loads to read!!!! first 2 lect already got dunno how many hundred of pages of things to read!! die already.. heng tmr i no lessons.. can stay home n read thru.. n also read thru my organic chem fer wed.. oh well..
yeaps.. spending like 155 bucks on juz 4 txtbks!! i dun believe it!! organic chem - 40 bucks coz i buying 2nd frm grace... physical chem - 60 bucks frm co-op.. i dun like to buy bks frm pple tt i dunno.. changing landscapes txt reading - 20 bucks frm arts co-op.. organic chem study guide n solutions - 35 bucks.. yay! i'm making my mum scream at me again.. yahoo! haa..
i'm darn sleepy.. nitez~ i shall go n haf a gd rest now.. finally i can sleep w/o crying.. haiz..
11:22:00 pm
first day of skool term tmr.. not looking 4ward to it at all.. dun wanna face pple.. crap..
1:07:00 pm
everything's bleak.. i may hafta quit skool afterall.. fuck.. i hate my mum.. i hate my dad fer not being here.. i hate my sisters.. this is a fucking bad way to start e new yr... been crying since morning... i dunno wat i did to deserve sth like this... i'm gone fer good..
11:13:00 am
i'm rite in saying she's a bitch.. now she can chat away on her hp to dunno who n luff away.. fucker.. i dun understand y i'm so affected.. i seldom cry.. but i'm crying now.. i hate it.. i'm trying blardy hard to control.. everything's coming at e wrong time.. blardy hell.. n juz coz i havent clean up my rm, she blows her top w/o knowing tt i'll b doing it later.. n she threatens to cancel my place in nus.. fuck... y do i study so hard fer? fer fun? n i dun hear other pple's parents complain tt they shldnt b spending money on their kids.. CB...... not tt i wanna swear so much now.. but i'm seriously damn frustrated.. other pple's parents let their kids spend e hols e way they want it... while my mum onli knoes how to scream at me to find a job.. doesnt she haf brains? noone would wanna hire pple who can onli work fer 1 mth.. haf some brains.. dunno wat e fuck is wrong w her.. ever since yest she came back frm jb in e morning, she havent spoken to me nicely at all.. NNB... TMD... i'm ur fucking daughter fer goodness sake... so wat if u job haf loads of problems.. u dun take it out on me bitch... i haf feelings too.. not juz u... u're juz jealous that i haf jerry w me while daddy's overseas..... i swear i'll b condemned by God..... i heck it.. i wanna get everything off my chest.... i cant wait till it's 130 when someone fucking goes to work n peace will once returns to jane kang's head.. good riddance..
sometimes i juz feel like running away.. at least i'll haf peace fer a while.. but i knoe deep down tt by running away, i wont change anything... all i wan is peace.. silence.. but i cant get it...
9:54:00 am
-PERSONAL DETAILS-
[NAME] jane
[AGE] erm... i'm always 18! kidding.. coming 20 in sept..
[HEIGHT] 160cm (sadly)
[LOOKS] like any other human?
[HOROSCOPE] Libra!!
[IN THE MORNING I AM] always hungry.. still sleepy.. dun wanna wake up to hear my mum's nagging.. blah blah..
[LOVE TO ME IS] like mint chocs.. =) minty, sweet, comforting, bitter sometimes..
[I DREAM ABOUT] i cant rem wat i dream abt! haha.. i've got short memory..
-ABOUT THE OPPOSTIE SEX-
[WHAT YOU WILL NOTICE FIRST] eyes.. like wat many pple says.. eyes r e windows to e soul.. yeaps..
[WHAT YOU LOOK FOR IN YOUR OTHER HALF] very understanding.. n someone who can withstand all my nonsense n shit.. =P
[WHAT TYPE YOU DISLIKE THE MOST] AH BENGS!!!!!
-LAST PERSON YOU-
[TALKED TO] my tenant.. haha.. juz asked her y she didnt go work...
[SLOW DANCE WITH] jerry.. =) at e nye's dinner.. kinda cool.. first time slow dancing! n i like it! hee..
[DANCED WITH] jerry lui larz.. hee.. also at nye's dinner
[WENT OUT WITH] haha.. i'm sick of typing jerry's name..
[EMAIL TO] ermz... my og? kalth frm sci camp.. i think.. I CANT REM!! i told ya i haf horrible short term memory..
[SMS TO] haha.. jerry yet again.. like juz a few mins ago.. hehe..
[THOUGHT OF] hm.. again? jerry.. =) but b4 tt it was siaw ling..
-WHO-
[IS THE ONE YOU HAD/HAVE A CRUSH ON] erm.. too many larz.. a bit paiseh to mention also.. come on.. i started having crushes way back in sec 1.. like hello! u wan me to name all? *kabish*
[IS THE EASIEST TO TALK TO] loads.. jane pang(nono.. not myself.. my gd fren w e same name..).. gina, siaw, lq, khal, yana n obviously jerry.. haha... still got a few more pple..
[IS THE ONE YOU TRUST MOST] basically those tt i juz named above..
[IS THE ONE YOU LOVED MOST] hee.. now of coz it's 2nd lieutenant jerry lui..
[IS THE ONE YOU HATE MOST] i dun hate anyone at e moment.. y shld i bother myself w pple tt i dislike.. doesnt the Bible says to love one's enemies? but since i cant love them, i shant hate them either..
[IS THE ONE YOU CAN'T FORGET] everybody i love..
[IS THE ONE YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT] lui lui.. hehe.. n my parents n my frenz.. there.. basically everyone again.. ^_^
-HAVE YOU EVER-
[FALLEN FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND] ermm.. i dun exactly consider them to b my best frenz.. haha.. but close frenz yeaps.. hee.. but tt time i was still young n innocent! really!! hee..
[BEEN IN LOVE] yeaps.. i'm in love rite now!
[TWO-TIMED YOUR BF/GF] NO!
[TRIED ANYTHING EXCITING] wat's ur definition of exciting?
-CAN YOU, WHAT IS, WHAT & DO YOU-
[LIVE WITHOUT YOUR COMPUTER] i guess so.. but tt was last time when my comp died n i didnt repair it fer a yr! i'm serious! it died at e end of j1.. n i survived j2 n thru A's w/o my comp.. but now i guess i cant.. all thanx to nus n them trying to computerise everything when their server sucks.. (ok.. outta pt there..)
[LIVE WITHOUT YOUR HANDPHONE] NEVER!
[YOUR FAVOURITE FOOD] hm.. loads! i love food! gimme sth tasty n doesnt look weird can already..
[YOUR FAVOURITE FRUIT] rock melon n honey pineapple frm thailand..
[YOUR FAVOURITE DRINK] fer now it's ribena n lipton instant ice lemon tea mix..
[HURTS YOU THE MOST] i would say it's.. doubt n untruth..
[TRUST OTHERS EASILY] depends.. i can b rather trusting sometimes..
-NUMBER OF-
[TIMES YOU HAD YOUR HEARTBROKEN] ermz.. not tt many.. mabbe twice? i cant rem..
[HEARTS YOU HAD BROKEN] ehz.. tt's a gd one.. i'm not sure.. lemme count.. 1,2,3,4,5,6,7... i dunno! think guys knoe frm clubbing doesnt count rite?
[GUYS YOU HAD KISSED] 1 n onli 1!
[GIRLS YOU HAD KISSED] lets see.. i dun haf e habit of kissing gals! onli hugs!
[DRUGS TAKEN ILLEGALLY] none.. take drugs fer wat? harm body onli.. n so ex.. oh oh! how abt taking panadol w/o supervision frm my mum? haha..
[CLOSE FRIENDS YOU HAVE] erm.. abt 15? i guess.. i'm lazy n sleepy.. so i cant b bothered to actually list them out n count..
[SCARS ON YOUR BODY] loads.. thanx to falls n chicken pox..
[THINGS YOU REGRETTED IN THE PAST] hm.. i dun recall any...
-OTHERS-
[I KNOW] erm.... a tiny weeny fraction of wat there's fer me to knoe..
[I WANT] loads of things... i'm greedy.. esp.. i wanna grow taller! i hate being 160cm..
[I HAVE] my dear! my gd frenz n my family!
[I WISH] i haf e power to do many things.. n i wish i had e brains of einstein, picasso, bill gates n all chemists combined..
[I HATE] being nagged at..
[I MISS] mg n ac days.. i miss working at sentosa too!
[I FEAR] creepy crawlies, dogs, cats.. basically any live animals.. i'm actually scared of my hamster coz she bites! she's too darn fierce..
[I HEAR] my mp3s tt r full of old songs coz i dun wanna run e risk of getting fined..
[I LOVE] my darling!
[I CARE] everyone dear to me..
[I WILL ALWAYS] love my darling n pple dear to me!
[I DANCE] fer rag 2003.. n when i go clubbing.. but i think i cant dance..
[I CRY] when i feel e need to.. obviously.. who cries fer fun?
[I WRITE] when i gotta do my tutorials or when i haf my av meeting..
[I CONFUSE] myself.. haha.. i'm seriously..
[I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND] at home? in nus..
[I NEED] sleep n haf my mum shut up..
-ARE YOU-
[WUSS] i dun exactly consider myself one..
[DRUG ADDICTER] NO NO NO..
[GANG MEMBER] ha.. tt's funny..
[DAYDREAMER] pretty much..
[ALCOHOLIC] nope.. my alcohol tolerance level sucks.. i drink to get high to dance onli..
[FREAK] mabbe.. i wouldnt knoe..
[BRAT] yeaps..
[BITCH] haha.. of coz!
[SARCASTIC] i try to..
[GOODY GOODY] erm.. not exactly.. i dun see e pt..
[ANGEL] haha.. u think i'm one? i'm not..
[DEVIL] i'm not tt horrible m i?
[FRIEND] of coz!
[SHY] unbelieveable yes! when i meet new pple..
[TALKATIVE] depending on e crowd i'm w.. if i like them.. i'll b.. if not i'll juz zip up..
[ADVERTUROUS] hm.. depending..
[INTELLIGENT] when i'm illusioning.. haha.. is there such a word? hee.. but other den tt.. i wouldnt count myself to b.. =P e sky's e limit! noone is perfect..
-ABOUT FRIENDS YOU KNOW-
[WISH YOU COULD MEET UP MORE OFTEN] hm.. siaw coz she's in kl.. yana n khal.. somehow we're all in e same area, jurong.. but we seldom meet.. i wanna meet JERRY LUI every min! jane coz i'm far too lazy to travel to town n she's far too lazy like me to travel to my area..
[MOST SARCASTIC] yp! haha.. n millie.. n sharada..
[UNDERSTANDS YOU THE BEST] lui.. yana, khal.. siaw, gina.. =)
[MOST ENTERTAINING] all haf their entertaining sides..
[LOVE TO BE AROUND] my much closer frenz..
[THE NICEST ONE] it's a tie.. khal, yana n siaw...
[GIVES THE BEST ADVICE] lets see.. it depends on e situation...
[YOU ARE WITH MOST OFTEN] erm.. u say lehz.. =P
-MORE ABOUT YOU-
[YOUR BEST FEATURE-PERSONALITY] my eyes? i dunno..
[PLACES YOU WOULD LIKE TO VISIT] south africa.. whole of europe.. australia.. mabbe usa too if i'm rich enuff..
[A DRINK YOU ORDER THE MOST] water? vodka sth when i go clubbing..
[A DELICIOUS DESSERT] puddings fer now..
[THE MUSIC YOU PREFER WHILE ALONE] erm.. i'm ok w anything.. as long as i like e music..
[TV SHOW YOU WATCH REGULARLY] chinese shows? i dun exactly change my plans juz so i can watch tv..
[YOU LIVE IN A (AN)] HDB.. i'm not loaded as it so happens..
[TRANSPORT YOU TAKE] any tt singapore can offer.. but i hate taking buses e most..
-WILL YOU-
[HIDE UNDER YOUR BED OR CLOSET] i'm way too far to hide in my closet of underneath my bed.. so i opt fer under my blanket?
[PREFER DAY OR NIGHT] day... i like things to b bright..
[PREFER STAY HOME OR OUT] now mostly i rather stay home.. travelling expenses very e high larz... i hate bus fare....
i hate my mum.. she juz made me cry.. she juz threatened me.. she's a total bitch.. i thot mum's r suppose to b loving n understanding regardless of anything.. but i guess i'm proven wrong.. dear.. come quick!
1:16:00 am
there was jazz performance going on at e esplanade juz now! it was great! i want to go again tmr! she's (micki brown i think..) gonna perform fer this wkend onli.. if not hafta go hotel intercontinental to watch her.. she's good! n she is a born entertainer.. yeaps.. though e band accompanying her haf really showy guys.. but overall it was fabulous! she gave a couple of riddles.. first one... what stays in a corner n yet travel round the world?? ans: stamp.. 2nd riddle.. how many seconds r there in a yr? ans: 12.. jan 2nd, feb 2nd etc.. GOTCHA! hee.. yeaps.. n she instilled loads of fun in her songs.. she's unbelieveable! go watch! i think tmr she starts performance at 7 plus.. i was there at 8 plus though.. had my bailey's ice cream! finally.. hee.. had a HUGE blister on my right small toe.. ouch! so in e end came home early.. hrmph.. i shant wear my tt pair of heels anymore.. sat by e river at esplanade juz now.. e cool breeze blowing.. e things we were tokking abt.. aw.. hee...
n oh ya.. we were at city hall mrt.. den i suddenly told jerry.. scarly we see dawn n devin here.. n tada.. a few seconds later.. devin appeared in front of us! hee.. kinda cool huh? me n my sixth sense.. can b rather freaky manz..
took cab home coz i juz couldnt walk so much w tt huge blister.. it burst when i was on my way down to cityhall.. =( so ya.. n passed by fullerton tt side.. n it reminded me of NYE tt nite.. we were all near e merlion deciding where to go.. den suddenly we hear some damn loud sound.. n i turned ard.. n i saw this grp of pple trying to make their own fireworks.. boy.. it was damn dangerous.. e sparks flew rather far.. lucky thing fer them tt nothing caught fire.. i'm so disgusted w them.. they think it's fun.. wat if sth really went wrong n everything blew up n injure or even kill themselves? worst still.. those innocent pple nearby get hurt too? they never think of e consequences of their actions.. i hate pple who r so irresponsible juz coz they wanna haf fun.. i admit i maybe irresponsible at times.. but not when it comes to this kinda thing lorz.. i mean seriously... i think it's so ridiculous that coz i had fun, i killed pple, so i'm going to jail fer tt n i juz ruined my WHOLE entire life juz fer tt few mins of fun tt i had.. dun u think so? hrmph..
dear.. thank you for being you.. for you taught me what love is like, for your unconditional love when i was being a bitch at times, for everything you have done for me, for the ups and downs.. and for you, i'll try my best to be a better person for you and to you.. the road ahead is long and will have a lot of uphills and downhills.. but i promise i'll walk it through with you..
i love you! -muackiez-
did i forget to mention tt last nite while we were chatting... i was wide awake.. den when we put down e phone n went to sleep.. i kinda hallucinated i guess.. haha.. approximately 1 hr after i fell asleep, i kinda went into semi consciousness.. n i woke up(well.. not exactly..) n i rem i was saying sorry darling.. i fell asleep.. sorry.. put down phone ok? n e next moment.. i realised i wasnt holding e phone at all.. e handle was back at e cradle.. sheesh.. i felt stupid.. n i fell asleep again.. den somehow, i woke up again.. cant really rem wat i did this time.. all i rem is tt i was sleep-talking(i wonder i learn frm who..).. again.. haha.. n woke up this morning.. feeling totally silly.. i never did this kinda thing b4.. haha.. crap.. ok.. time to drift off.. otherwise i wont make sense anymore..
3:42:00 pm
this afternoon..
1 message recieved.. it says brother i juz dyed my hair... jane replied huh?
1 message recieved again.. it says sent to wrong person.. sorry.. jane didnt reply..
1 message recieved yet again.. it says i wanted to give u a surprise later.. jane replied u fool..
haha.. jokes.. i'm so not surprised.. later we're gonna go see stars.. =) yeaps.. n eat ice cream (most prob my fave baileys frm haagen daaz).. whee.. i love life fer e next 3 days.. n den it's back to skool.. boohoo..
woke up this morning n checked cors.. min bid fer BH2111 personal finance is 1XXX(1000+) bidpts.. me: WTF! jerry:*TTOOOOOOOOTT* me: lets find another module to take together.. but try not to b on tues coz it's my free day.. 1 HOUR LATER n spotting a lot of boring modules later.. me: how abt this gem? gek 2012? public governance in developing nations.. jerry: sounds chim.. lets see.. A WHILE LATER.. jerry: ok.. bidding seems ok.. no bids yet.. onz? me: anything.. this module sure will fucked up one.. (was getting irritated w e lack on interesting modules to bid fer on any days except tues..) jerry: heck lar.. anyhow lar.. got s/u option.. me: ok.. done..
this is wat happens to a conversation btw anybody who's in nus n r bidding fer modules now.. it was even worst when i was chatting w daphne when bidding rds juz started.. yeaps.. it's pretty much like shares.. n i dunno wat i'm getting myself into my taking tt module..
while monitoring bids fer bahasa indonesia.. no of bidders keep increasing.. (pt to note tt all vacancies taken up... highest bidders get e module) min bid keep increasing.. half an hour later.. no of bidders remains at 168.. no of vacancies remain at 126.. min bid stealthily increases frm 11 to 21 to 31 to 41.. n wateva it is now.. grz...
i shant torture anyone reading this anymore..
5:28:00 pm
dinner at fullerton last nite was great! e food was nice n e programme was actually surprisingly not bad.. rather entertaining.. e emcee was victor khoo.. rem tt guy w e puppet called charlie? e guy w e super duper curly hair? yeah.. him.. those were e childhood days.. yeaps.. had lucky draw.. n me n jerry both won sth! he got his beloved electric toothbrush to use in hall.. while i got a new cordless phone to replace e spoilt one tt i'm using now.. haha.. tokking abt coincidences man.. oh well.. took photos.. =) hee.. gonna put it up soon.. yeaps.. den we both decided to stay till countdown coz e programme was much better den wat we expected.. yeaps.. n jerry was forced to drink red wine by his colleague who's crazy abt it.. haa... den somebody else went to buy champange.. n another person bought another bottle of wine too.. haha... e table was full of alcohol.. i didnt really touch mine though.. ok.. i finished e little bit of champange i had.. n dun like wine n champange.. tastes funny.. yeap..
rear admiral teo chee hian was there too.. n he was on e dance floor dancing!! haha.. to r&b somemore!! haha.. e songs they played were fantastic! wonderful mambo nite music.. den to e kinda r&b songs tt i love! yeah.. had a great time dancing.. den had some conda thingy?? i cant rem wat it was called already.. it's like everyone juz forms into a line n start running ard celebrating... fun fun... e atmosphere was so happening n onz! n there were navy officers frm a few countries there.. interesting crowd... haha..
wanted to see e fireworks frm outside fullerton.. but too bad.. we missed it.. den we joined rw, paul, rw's 2 cousins, nicole n her fren near centro.. we walked hell a lot.. on my blardy heels.... (pt to note.. i never wear heels fer a damn long time already.. so last nite it was e first time i was wearing it after so long.. n it was a new pair of heels too..) wanted to go edo sushi at selegie there.. but obviously there wasnt any cabs ard.. so we walked back to fullerton.. but there werent much cabs.. so we continued walking to clarke quay... called cabs... 1 cab didnt come... so everyone decided to juz head home coz we thot it was pointless to try so hard juz to get a cab to eat sushi.. den after tt try damn hard again to get another cab home.. n all tt waiting took us to long to get home! slept at 430.. n i was up n about at 930! n i had to laze in bed frm 830 to 930! haha.... but i slept after i can home frm brunch.. yeaps.....
tmr's a slack day again! muz seriously slack until i'm so slack.. haha.. coz skool's gonna start.. n when it starts, cannot afford to slack liaoz.. hopes jerry lui is free... hm.... shld i go fer sat's thingy? hrmphz....... *considers*
i'm still sleepy.. early nite fer me tonite.. n there's bidding tmr.. growls....
finally jerry drove me in his dad's car.. to fullerton.. though both his parents were ard.. n fer 1 thing.. he cant drive straight! heh.. but nonetheless.. i'm happy! =) -muacks-
